The Struggle

Living with PTSD
By this time in tour I was ready to go home!

My Thoughts As I Drift..

I am Currently sitting at my computer in my stream room. Browsing through MIXER watching some new folks, and familiar ones, and I find myself wondering what direction I am going. I have found myself in a slump as of late, and going between whether or not I want to be a family friendly streamer, or at least teen rated, or strictly 18+. On one hand, I find being in the teen rating section you do tend to get a higher viewer count, however I find at 18+ I can have a little more fun, and tend to attract in more like minded people, and creating true friendships.

I guess my struggle is that do I do what I think looks right for my brand and content, or go with the more fun, and enjoyable content, in my opinion?

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Should there be a struggle?

I mean one should always choose what is best for their brand. Right?

But than the question now becomes, what is right for the brand? And that is in where my struggle lays.

Need to find my brand again, what made me want it to be my brand, to best represent ME!

A 36 year old Husband, and father of two amazing children. Military Veteran with a tour of duty in Afghanistan. Currently I am streaming full time, as well as spend as much time with our 9 month old daughter. I have a love for the sport of Hockey, #GoHabsGo, and of dogs as well. So much so, that we have 4 amazing puppers.

I have tried to incorporate all these into my stream and brand.

But I want to start incorporating more, I want to do more.


“Every day the clock resets. Your wins don’t matter. Your failures don’t matter. Don’t stress on what was, fight for what could be.“ -Sean Higgins


I suffer daily with PTSD..but I don’t want it to hold me back any longer, and I want to be able to help others as well, but I don’t know where or how to start.

Other than offering my channel up as a PTSD safe zone, a #BreakTheStigma zone. Somewhere we can get together and talk, destress, with out judgement, or shame. I don’t know how much this will help. But, even if it helps one person..I think that is a start?

Drop a comment and let me know your thoughts!


Peace and Love



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